once recited the title of a film: "The Unbearable Lightness of Being."
But I'm doing a lot of effort to support the weight of not being ... love.
Recently I came back to life "wild", or when there is nobody that you set any limits, except what you ask yourself, nobody will "recommend" that would be better to do or not do ... and so far everything is incredibly fantastic!
fantastic and even returning to do a kind of life I've always loved: night clubs and discos! I love to go to sleep at dawn, I always liked the night life in all its entirety, now that I am 34 years old, just like when I was ten years younger (also fifteen ..). Even when I'm home, I would never go to sleep!
I found old friends and I found new with which to share these beautiful moments of fun but .... ..... ....
...... in the morning at dawn when I lie down in my bed, always missing something.
I was lucky that I had already fallen in love twice in my life and have enjoyed the heady feeling of love.
I'm having fun, but I am unhappy.
I miss the amazing feeling to hear someone constantly around you, I miss the incomparable pleasure in seeing your lover fall asleep on your chest, and looking at that face, smile ... smile because you understand what you are lucky to be there, with that person, at that time and all the problems disappear. You forget the quarrels, problems at work, the rate of pay. All you do is please you for the joy of watching that person is embracing you while sleeping.
I miss the cold feet under the duvet (because a woman with full hot I still find it!) That come to boiling heat between your legs (because we men always die from the heat under the duvet!).
I miss the simplicity of a film already seen and to watch stravisto huddled on the couch, an ice cream in center on Sunday afternoon shopping on Saturday ...
Even when I was a bit younger I always had trouble being alone, more than ever I hear this strange solitude of the heart, which sometimes makes you feel alone even when you're in a crowded disco people. I do not feel alone, I have many friends, but friends are not enough.
I'm not looking for everlasting love, I do not know if it exists, but I'm one of those people who needs to have a person of the opposite sex around, it must be to become embroiled in any relationship. And I do not know how this is good because sometimes I make very great shit!
That said, for today I think I wrote enough sttronzate ............
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